These last few days have been weird and I’ve been feeling very overwhelmed lately.  Depression?  I don’t know because I have nothing to be depressed about, but if it is depression I am not depressed for myself, I am depressed for everyone else because they are blind.  When I think of myself It’s strange, can’, I feel mentally I am “free”.  It explain it all but I can attempt to.

As I see the people around me, I see degradation and I’m not talking about a degradation in values or morals or anything like that. It’s a degradation of self, of who we are and what we are becoming.  I just started noticing it a few years ago while sitting in traffic commuting to work; I call it my Matrix Moment.  For some reason while I’m sitting there in stopped traffic it was as if I “woke up”. I looked around me and then into the distance at the miles and miles of stopped cars.  All I could think of was “system”.  The best I can explain it are cows being herded into a barn.

I finally got to work and as I walked through the door and everyone in their business suits walking in and between the aisles, again the thought “system” came to mind.  I sat at my desk and all of sudden it hit me, that all of this was meaningless.  I thought to myself, does anyone see this but me?  Yes people bitch and moan about how they hate their jobs and so forth, but do they actually SEE it?  They go right back to doing what they did before so I don’t know if they see it and just go back to “the herd” because it’s the easier thing to do, they feel there is no way out of it or do they honestly not see it?

When it comes to describing it in the form of nature, we are somewhere between a drone and worker.  If our food was cut off we’d all panic and die because like a drone bee, we wouldn’t be able to feed ourselves and just die.  All of this for what?  You can’t take anything with you.  Who died and said to us that a 2.61″x 6.14″  piece of paper and named it “money” somehow matters and then built an entire empire around the idea so that the lie and deception manifests itself so now that in a way it DOES matter? So you are dependent on it and made it extremely difficult to leave it?  Who made all this up and then drug us all into it?  Who is really free?  Why can’t I leave it?  Why can’t I opt-out without being forced into being taxed or fined to death?  Who’s really free? The American or the tribal man out in the Amazon? Why should money be important? Why should credit be important?  Why is driving a car so important? Why is the status quo important?  Why can’t I be a simple commoner who lives on a meager income and still be able to afford to live and retire?  Why should I have to be rich in order not to struggle?  Why do I have to work?  Why does what I love to do and what makes me happy returns no income unless I am rich?  Why does everyone have to sell their soul and every breath to this system in order to have full access to life?

Then it dawned on me, because we Americans are not free and never have been.  Freedom in America never started, it was all the “American Dream”.  When the Euro’s dropped anchor on the shores of North America, their “pursuit of happiness” was pursuit for “their own” happiness to use us all as cattle for their own riches.  The American Dream is just the carrot dangled in front of our noses from the moment we come to understanding of the world around our teenage time.  They taunt us with sure you can have what we have … as long as you pay tithes your entire lives, give your earnings to banks and your body power to our corporate system.  By the time you’re done, your too effin worn out, old or laden with diseases and disorders to even get off the couch to enjoy what’s left in your life.  THIS is why Joan of Arc led the French army at the age of 17, people were FREE then. Free to change evil. FREE to live as they pleased. FREE to stand up for those who could not.  Some people seem content with this and see no problem with it.  But I do because it is MY life and I when I came into it, I didn’t owe anyone a favor except my family and even that is by choice.

Since I came to this realization, the sun seems to shine brighter.  The best I can describe it is “gamma”.  And I look at people as if they were “things” or some kind of cattle being prodded in every direction but at the same time always into the same direction; the slaughter.  Kind of like when Neo was riding in the car looking at all the people who hadn’t been “unplugged”.

I see how gullible people are today and so now, yes I do believe that the claim to “freedom” was in the biggest hoax of all just like religion.  And this is not just true to America, but true to all developed countries in some shape or form.  All a hoax to control an entire nation of people.

I am sure there are people out there who feel the same as me, so I’m not going to fill my entire web site about it, I created a new site called Judas Goat just for “eye-opening” discussion.  Feel free to join it.

I got my American Express Bluebird Card in the mail a few days ago so just thought I’d share what I like and hate about it.  There aren’t many things I hate about it but there is room for improvement; lots of room.  I want to start off by saying I hate conventional banks (story why I hate them here), I had a horrible experience with Well’s Fargo when I was forcibly switched to them from Wachovia when the banks went down back in 2000-whenever.  I needed a mobile bank that moved when I moved and didn’t rely on high monstrous fees just for holding the card, being nickel and dimed to death, or me  going inside the bank just to complete some transactions, or anything else.

So one day I was tinkering on Google Play Market and I applied for the American Express Bluebird pre-paid card.  Amazingly I found it functioned more like a free checking account than a pre-paid card where you do most of your banking, deposits and withdrawals at any Walmart center or at any Moneypass ATM.  And not only that but you can cash your checks with the mobile app or go inside Walmart and cash the check and request to have the funds deposited to the card with no fees.  Pretty much if you have direct deposit, every transaction on the card is free.

Some info:

  • How much cash can you load up with bluebird AMEX?

You can load a total of $10,000 a month to the card no matter which method you use it to fund it, but depending on the method you are loading it, via bank transfer, cash or with another debit card, these individual amounts will vary.

    • If funding it with another debit card, you can load up to $100 per transaction, $100 per day and $1,000 per month.
    • If funding it with cash, you can load a total of $1,000 per day and $5000 per month.
    • If funding it from another Bluebird account there is no limit, you just can’t exceed $10,000 a month.
    • Remote check capture, $2,000 per check.

Pros:

  • No daily spending limit.  As long as you have the money there you can swipe all day long

Now the cons which are clearly stated in their Terms & Conditions:

  • No cash back at ATMs

Now the things AMEX Bluebird does not advertise on their site that you don’t find out until you try to use the card is:

  • SMS doesn’t work with Google Voice.  As usual when you go to verify your Google Voice number, you won’t get the code.
  • No ACH debit, meaning you can’t pay a bill by giving your AMEX Bluebird biller your routing and account number; if you try, AMEX will decline the transaction. BUT Bluebird does have online Bill Pay so you can pay anyone
  • Does not send an SMS of deposits or purchases made.  You will only get notifications of that if your transaction is between another AMEX Bluebird account. Lame.
  • Cannot see your transactions in real time.  For example I put $30 in my Bluebird account and then switched all my monthly billers to my card.  Today I saw $20 on my Bluebird balance so I was like wtf!  I checked my transactions and low and behold I saw no transactions, just a missing $10.  So I called up AMEX Bluebird and told them hey I have $10 missing from my account but it doesn’t show online what I have pending.  The AMEX rep was able to tell me it was a $10 charge from USPS for my post office box.  And that’s a whole nother issue in itself because they charged me early; they weren’t suppose to charge me for another 5 days but whatever.  I guess it doesn’t show what the charge is until it clears. But yeah, if you want to know what a “mystery” transaction is, you have to call them and find out.  They do have text SMS for your transactions, however it will only text you the history of the same crap you can see online and not pending purchases.   Omg that is so 80’s.

Overall, besides those small peeves, I love the American Express Bluebird card and will probably be using it for a long long time rather than utilizing a conventional banks that love to throw in a whole bunch of “gotcha’s”.  I still have my Netspend savings account to take advantage of the 5% APY so I think I’m pretty much set for my banking alternative.  I’d recommend the American Express Bluebird card whoever is looking for the same.

Finally caught some time away from WoW to actually play GW2; I’ve had it since release date but didn’t get a chance to really play it between work and raiding in WoW.  I decided to level up a Norn Warrior that I had left off at level 15 since I last played on release date but it seems I’m already stuck at a skill point quest; the Aging Ale Barrels.

Oh well, I got my pizza and cherry Coke, guess I’ll spend the next hour or so figuring it out.

Aww. When will people learn you don’t mess with anyone below the 18 yard line.  And when you’re working with kids, you don’t mess with anyone FIVE yards below the yard line that you are at.

Apparently a second kid, Cecil Singleton, now an adult, has popped out the woodworks and is suing Kevin for $5 million for under aged sex claims.  I wonder how many more MeToos will come out of nowhere after the money and obviously not showing any shame of  “their abuse by an adult”  because they chose to sell their knowledge to the media outlets such as TMZ and suing rather than telling the cops for rape or indecency with a minor charges.  If it does go to court, I can’t wait to see them.  I want to see how hard they try to squeeze some tears out because they both look like Drama Queens to me.

Just looking at these two characters and Sheldon’s past run-ins with the cops history, I am pretty sure both of them are just gold-diggers and willingly participated with this man and only want his money.  It’s like legalized prostitution for minors. Lie and tell them you’re 18, have sex willingly with a stupid adult, and just when they make it to the peak of their career, boom, come out with the child rape bomb and you’re paid for life without ever having to lift a finger if they’re rich enough.  I have a strong feeling these two will not be the only ones.  My crystal ball tells me so.

Sheldon Stephens
Cecil Singleton

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sheldon Stephens was the first one and I am almost willing to bet that he recanted his recant for the $120,000 hush money because Cecil contacted him and so they are now in cahoots to get more money.  I say that because I find it too coincidental that Sheldon recants his recant just the day before Cecil comes out with his MeToo revelation.  Would he have recanted his recant and taken the hush money if Cecil had never said anything?  Probably not; he would have taken it and went on about his business.

If the allegations are true, which I am sure at this point they probably are, another celebrity goes down behind a dirty past they may not even have nothing to do with anymore. So sad, but oh well, we can only hope that Elmo himself won’t get pulled from Sesame Street behind this whole fiasco.

And that people voted for Obama just because they want “stuff”.  Then she goes on to tell me that she is married and has two kids … but hasn’t had health insurance in years because she can’t afford it.  Believe me, I am trying so hard to understand right-wing’s supporters’ methods of thinking, but most the time when they explain their reasoning , they either have this “what’s good for me is not good for you” attitude or it’s this whole subservience to the policies that got this country exactly where it is in the first place mentality. They even defend the right-wing to the point where they are attempting to justify policies to me that doesn’t even include them!  Some of them are even living out the exact problems that are plaguing many Americans, that Obama is fighting against, such as millions of Americans running around here with no healthcare.  How long are we suppose to wait on taking care of this healthcare problem?  How long do we keep it on the backburner?  How long has it already been on the backburner before politicians decided to do anything about it knowing full well this breach in the insured to uninsured was going to bust wide open?

At this point, universal healthcare or some kind of healthcare reform, should have happened after the Clinton administration when we had the surplus, but NOOOOO someone wanted to sling their dick over their shoulder, go to war and waste the money. Now we’re in a deficit and struggling to get the money we need to help our own people.  Other co-workers started ranting about other country’s national healthcare about how they suck, even though they have never lived there to even know, and saying that they have poor health conditions.  Jesus people, it’s not like the government is building new clinics and hospitals and sticking 3rd world doctors in them, morons.  We will have the same clinics and hospitals with the same doctors as before, just the policies are changing.

The prices for health insurance go up every year or so no matter who is in office,  so how long are we suppose to wait before we do something about it? There are about 48.6 million uninsured Americans right now.  Americans bitch and whine about the price tag for universal healthcare, but when there’s a war all of a sudden the money comes out the woodworks.  It’s like no one wants to spend money on their own country, they seem content on blowing other country’s  up. Do we wait until we have people dying in ER waiting rooms or people dying in their homes, etc?  Until we have an epidemic of the Bubonic Plague-like proportion because a handful of people couldn’t afford healthcare so they just walked around with it infecting everyone else?  Do we wait for some illegal to jump the border with a nasty bug that infects us all?  Or do we wait until there’s an outbreak of the super-flu that wipes out a small town?   Because that is exactly what is going to happen with the number of people running around without healthcare. No healthcare means you got people walking around with diseases and the last thing we need is for one to mutate and wipe out people.  Yes it does sound like something from a horror movie but it’s a very possible reality; it’s a ticking time bomb just waiting to go off.

Left to the decision of Republicans, that is exactly what’s going to happen and they will not do anything about it and do what they do best, neglect the issue.  Neglect it until it explodes and becomes an epidemic just like they neglected the issues of Wall Street under the Bush administration until the crap busted wide open and America woke up the next morning to evaporated pensions, a balance of $.50 cents in their 401k’s, and a foreclosed sign on their porch.  I remember getting letters in the mail from 2 of the banks I had accounts with saying my accounts would be transferred to another bank because they were folding and were getting bought out; banks that now charge fees for their services mind you.  So when I see them say things like this, it makes me wonder if they have just  given up their dignity and submitted to this big business, plutocratic and oligarchic country, hoping that some way or somehow corporations, under their own vices, out of the kindness of their hearts, will just handover medical insurance to you and if not oh well or do they just love getting pistol-whipped by the wealthy?  Even when I was working for an employer it was only about $20 cheaper from individual health insurance; not a big difference.

As far as my co-worker, I don’t know if it’s her entire family with no insurance, probably because she also says she is in a single income family although she is married, but she is walking around with no health insurance because she cannot afford it. Do you not see something wrong with that?  Is this the new American patriotism?  To just neglect yourself because you don’t have the money to pay for it and thus walk around with no kind of medical insurance whatsoever but work 10 hours a day?  And if you ask for ONE thing, a.k.a. healthcare, you’re classified as wanting “stuff”?  If this IS the new America, then we need a better education system to make college part of our standard education system so everyone can go to college just like the Arab and Indian countries do, so we can make more money to feed the plutocrats while at the same time afford healthcare for ourselves.

But I guess it’s the American Way to just become an expendable pawn in this game to work hard for the plutocrats and spending your life doing it, and at the same time the money you earn that YOU worked for, once again just goes back into the hands of the plutocrats and then your kids are going to raised into a public school system that teaches them to be cooperative to the plutocrats and do the same thing in life? Well are you a human being or just a friggin Duracell battery because I don’t see much difference between the two. I mean unless you like being created predestined to never get ahead and just be drained by the plutocrats of everything you work hard for, and serving no other function in life.   Sorry, I value myself much more than that and I am not  going to continue to let the divide between the have’s and have not’s continue.

The 1% seems to have forgotten that they made their money off the sweat of the 99%’s backs.  Sorry plutocratic America.  We’re hurting out here so we’re taking some of it back.

I say let ’em; no sweat off my brow whatsoever.  In case you live under a rock, most if not all the states, have petitions on the White House web site to “peacefully” secede from the United States.  I live in Virginia in which there was a petition to secede from the U.S. … hello excuse me?  I am not seceding from anything.  I am not leaving my life behind because a few butt-hurt Tea Bagging pricks are mad that their candidate didn’t win the election.  If you want to secede from the U.S. then you pack your bags and gtfo; no one is stopping you.  Don’t let the Constitution hit you in the ass on your way out.  No matter how boring it is, I am still proud of my state and country through the good and the bad.  I tolerated Bush; I didn’t like him, but you didn’t see me or anyone else crying about they wanted to leave the Union.  No we all sucked it up and stuck through the fail.

Now mind you, nobody wanted to secede from the United States when Bush destroyed our economy.  Nobody wanted to secede from the United States when Bush set off on his witch hunt over weapons of mass destruction that were never found because they never existed in the first place, killing thousands in a fake war. Nobody wanted to secede from the United States, when Bush was making this country go into ginormous debt.  And where were the Tea Baggers through all this?  They were nowhere to be found because they were convenient and comfortable with all of it including starting a war based on emotions.

So now we have a President who wants to invest in our country and put a system in place designed for the future, to help those who are struggling and ignoring the fact that our President decreased our taxes at the beginning of his first term AND delivered Obama’s head on a silver platter AND saved our auto industry which would not exist today if he hadn’t AND provided immediate support for Hurricane Sandy victims AND getting new green jobs on the market so we can live cleaner for the future AND getting ways for us not to depend on foreign oil … and all some ungrateful American people can say is now they want to leave the United States?

This is all because the man is black; nothing more, nothing less.  All that other crap about Obamacare, taxes, welfare (of which I can guarantee there are thousands of Tea Baggers on) and everything else is just an excuse to cover up the REAL reason because taxes have been going up since America was created, welfare has been in the U.S. since the early 1800s government and welfare has been a constant argument since it was created in the 1930s.  People are scared of Obamacare because it is new, BUT at the same time we cannot continue health insurance on the same road because the number of uninsured people walking around is just going up and up every year because insurance is too expensive for everyone to pay for; we can’t continue on that route or we’re going to have insurance only the wealthy can afford.  The only reason they are against Obam is because he’s brown and the racists truly believe if he’s not white, then he’s not right.  They do not trust the country in the hands of a black man, despite his credentials.   If Obama were white it would be business as usual in the United States just like it was business as usual when Bush was raping it.  Sure there would have been a little protesting here and there, but it would not nowhere of this extent.  Obama could be the Pope himself and they would still believe he’s stupid.  They seem to believe that the color of one’s skin is a measure of one’s intelligence and character, even though he’s been in the government most his adult life, they believe he is incompetent. I see we still have white Americans who haven’t learned a  thing from history and they never will; we can only hope they die off and they haven’t poisoned too many of their children with their disease.

Don’t get me wrong, there are some Tea Party members that are truly honest people who just don’t agree with Obama’s politics and that’s cool, those are not the people who piss me off because they have an intelligent, logical argument against the President that they are entitled to, but  then there is another side to the Tea Party. A strong, dark lot of them, reminiscent of the 1950s, KKK, Neo-Nazis and other hate groups, and who are extreme  Christians and/or racists who have already shown that they will not stop by any means to stir things up and sabotage this country just to turn people against Obama. I would feel comfortable betting that the people who started the secession petitions were Tea Baggers.  In fact, a few of the secession petitions were created by the same person and they didn’t even reside in the state in which they created the secession petition for. The Tea Baggers preyed off of people’s emotions, bigotry and hate and turned it into a movement.   And we all know from history that religious driven hate is the worst hate of any kind on the planet because they feel they were “chosen” and it is their “divine” and “god-given” duty to become their god’s “hand of retribution” to protect something.  I am not talking about the civilized Tea Party members, I am talking about the handful of radical ones and personally, I believe those handful of radicals are just a stone’s throw from becoming home-grown terrorists. I mean seriously, you don’t see Mexican hate groups, Black hate groups, Asian hate groups etc, creating organizations across the country and having hate rallies; you see only the white people doing this.  Unfortunately, THESE particular radical white people are derived from centuries of hate that carried down through the generations, which white Americans that squashed the racist tradition at some point, never dealt with .  They just allowed them to fester and grow.  These particular white Americans,  never came to face their demons and now this is the white trash we are left to deal with in 2012.

By the way I know the secession would never happen in the first place in any of the states because just as there are people who want to secede there’s to be millions times more people who will not want to secede, so I know this will not happen.  But it’s just the audacity of some people who still haven’t gotten over the race card. Build a bridge and get over it.  You guys are the ones who are dividing this country and will make this country fall, not President Obama.

America herself will not survive in the 21st century unless she comes to tap into the diversity that is her’s and stop pursuing this kind of divisive policy. This is more of a threat to the future of America than anything ever posed by the old USSR. We will explode from within unless we all understand we have a stake in this system and that’s the compelling issue; not whether we like each other, not whether we love each other, not whether it ever started out right, not whether we should be angry with anybody. We won’t survive unless we understand we’re in it together.

– Mayor of Washington D.C. Sharon Pratt Kelly, The Issue is Race, 1992

They had it right.  Women didn’t get the right to vote until 1920 and it took an amendment of a law, the 19th amendment, to even make it happen.  And just to note, these women wouldn’t look like Romney supporters to me. Just saying.  Get out and vote! The moment we get complacent about it, is the moment the government will snuff it from under us.

 

Voted today. Go-go Obama.  To those in Virginia who have not voted yet, please please get out and vote and turn Virginia Blue!! If not blue then at least vote and stand for something and not just sit on the sidelines watching the world go by, because believe me, the haters are voting … in droves.  If you don’t vote, I don’t want to hear one political or government complaint from you until 2016.  You only have to do it every 4 years so it won’t kill you; I promise. And to you people, and you know who you are, on WELFARE need to get out and vote and not wait on the rest of the state to do it for you.  Because frankly, I am so sick and tired of hearing from friends who I know are on government assistance, saying that they do not vote!  How can you not vote?  You’re using MY tax dollars and honestly, I don’t give …


 

… if you get your food stamps or not; I have never been and will probably, knock on wood, will never be on them, but I think of other people who hit a rock in life and I don’t mind my taxes going to people in those situations.  Do for yourself because no one else will!

Was kind of disappointed today to see that my usual voting place had ZERO people in it … but me and the voting monitors.  Last time I went the line was wrapped around the building.  I’m just hoping that it’s due to them closing alot of the apartment complexes around here causing people to move and had to vote elsewhere.  My Mom said that her voting location was packed though.  Took me less than 5 minutes to vote tho so I was happy.  Took me longer to vote on the two amendments to the Virginia constitution though because of all the derivatives   I didn’t understand.  Why can’t they make it easier to understand!

 

Noooooooo!  

I opened Chrome today, which defaults to Google Search when I open it, and saw this message in the bottom corner

Background images are going away on November 16, 2012

Thank you for using background images. As we build a more streamlined Google Search page for everyone, we’ll no longer be able to support customization with background images. So you will no longer be able to see your background pictures starting November 16, 2012.

Click Remove to stop using a background image now. Your current background image and Picasa web albums will still be available to you.

How sad, I’ve had my WoW background image for as long as I can remember.  I thought it was cute and unique, although it turned heads when I logged into my Google account at work; that wasn’t a good thing considering my job had “No Warcraft Conversations” posted all over the cubicles.  Not lying, my job did.  But so many people played WoW, including the supervisors, that it was getting on peoples’ nerves.  Pfft.  I mean it was IT support; what did they expect when they have a call center full of nerds?

But anyways yeah Google background images are going away and now I guess I will be forced to look at the new Google interface they will be implementing. It says they are going to make the new Google Search page more streamlined, but how much more streamlined can you make a blank page with Google and a search box on it? That’s about as streamlined as you’re going to get.  Somehow I doubt it’s a new interface at all but a new page that will be splattered with ads.  If that does turn out to be the case, I’ll have to find me a new home page which I haven’t had in eons. Maybe hopefully they’ll make it, or some developer, an addon for Google Chrome because I really loved my Google home page.  Bye Sylvannas, Lor’themar, Genn, Gelbin, Muradin & Varian; we had some good times.   🙁

My personal Google account background image: World of Warcraft’s “Eastern Kingdoms” loading screen:

My business Google account background image: Diablo III’s female Witch Doctor: